Up until now, I realize how many times I’ve made the same mistakes. Lessons are so hard to get! How many tries does it take for one to learn, and not have the same stupid and foolish attitude over and over again?
Am I so blinded and simpleminded? What is the perspective that people have about me? Am I really that selfish and self-centered to people? Am I honestly that oblivious to my surroundings?
Could it really be that I have had all these bewildering thoughts right there, in my face, and I don’t see any?
I think that people and relationships are so simple: they’re just the way I look at them and how I feel them. I don’t stop to consider what is the other person thinking or feeling. Do I really stop to even ask?
Wow! No. I don’t dare. I don’t dare to be straightforward. When I want to talk to somebody, is as if I create a maze where they can never reach the goal; I get them lost on purpose. And then I feel like nobody understands me.
This is so NOT how I want to be...
I want to reflect how I really feel inside without the fear of being rejected—I want to say it out loud! I want to be daring and intrepid. Don’t hold back on any opportunity. Bury this shyness away and start being myself. I want the world to know me.
"I don’t dare to be straightforward." - I used to be this way too, Jani, I learned (when I'm not shy >>) to just be straightforward. Even if it's awkward, you get results and people know you better!! I've talked to Yaw about a lot of stuff, even on the first day I met him P: He knows me better than me! Haha!
ReplyDelete"I want to say it out loud! I want to be daring and intrepid." - Do it! I mean, don't blurt anything that comes to mind, do consider what you're saying, sometimes things can be taken out of context or taken the wrong way, which is bad... But yeah! Do it! :D
Good post, pretty deep :D Love it! b <-- thumbs up ^^