Shocking Possibilities

Have you ever felt a sudden eagerness to keep living? Have you been in a crucial point where you found yourself so desperate to do everything—because every time you try, it actually works?

This has been a very contrasting and incomparable moment in my life: when I finally stop to think and process all the encounters, opportunities, chances, and joy… I’m simply left astonished.  The possibilities are infinite when it comes to what I’m capable of doing and experiencing. I’m so glad I know it. I’m so glad I’m living it.

It’s not easy to learn to let go, but it’s also not impossible. I believe I’m finally giving me a chance; I’m really trying and learning how to manage tangled and tricky situations.

Watch and learn. Learn and apply. Apply and create. Create your environment with your actions. If it doesn’t work, try again. Try and commit. 

Just make your day however you please… because you’re really able to.

Sudden Thought

And I’m like this because I don’t have other option, because the truth is that I wish to keep going and going… Keep sharing, keep on this little game, and keep knowing and feeling.

I have no hurry, I want to live the moment: one experience through another, keep learning, expand my horizons, my vision of the world, because there’s always more, and more, and more.

I don’t want to conform to my present; I want to hope for more so I’ll demand more.

I don’t want to see only one side, one opinion… I want to have all of them, and choose and make it happen. Be happy with no chains, try until I get satisfied, observe and study until I convince myself to get excited and act.

There are so many secrets buried in the trunks of life: I want to be the pirate in the search of all the treasures, and meanwhile, go around the world. Be so rich and seeking for even more riches.

From the highest point in the sky, to the deepest spot in the ocean; from the driest and most agonizing of all deserts, to the most torturing arctic place; arrive to the most pleasant of all the sunny beaches, and explore it until the end.

Daydreaming

Is like this amazing feeling of security.  You see and you think: what is it that you can be doing that would make you feel better? Right here. Right now.

You have that vision and you start to wonder if it only makes sense in your head — is it an extinguished desire or just a transient thought? I have the undying hope of seeing you, and yet every time I do, my world is normal again. I have the ability of letting you go so easily, and still your memories overflow my mind and create the daily dream I live in.

How can I have this anxious eagerness and enthusiasm of our encounter if I know that you’re not going to be there? Or are you? Do I really know?

It’s just hope and survival. This is I, keeping me in balance. This is myself, trying to hold on to the last minute, to the last chance, to the last happy feeling.

Conclusion for a Beginning

     Up until now, I realize how many times I’ve made the same mistakes. Lessons are so hard to get! How many tries does it take for one to learn, and not have the same stupid and foolish attitude over and over again?

     Am I so blinded and simpleminded? What is the perspective that people have about me? Am I really that selfish and self-centered to people? Am I honestly that oblivious to my surroundings?

Could it really be that I have had all these bewildering thoughts right there, in my face, and I don’t see any?

     I think that people and relationships are so simple: they’re just the way I look at them and how I feel them. I don’t stop to consider what is the other person thinking or feeling. Do I really stop to even ask?

     Wow! No. I don’t dare. I don’t dare to be straightforward. When I want to talk to somebody, is as if I create a maze where they can never reach the goal; I get them lost on purpose. And then I feel like nobody understands me.

     This is so NOT how I want to be...

     I want to reflect how I really feel inside without the fear of being rejected—I want to say it out loud! I want to be daring and intrepid. Don’t hold back on any opportunity. Bury this shyness away and start being myself. I want the world to know me.