I am very surprised at the new person I'm converting into. From an extremely shy personality, a girl who didn't talk to anyone if she didn't absolutely have to; to a girl that realized she couldn't go on living this introverted life if she actually wanted to do something with her life; to actually developing some social skills and giving herself the opportunity of being sincere and true to herself... It really does make a difference.
There are so many experiences I have had that had taught me to be the way I am now: many painful things and very good ones. It feels great to realize how much I have changed and how that gets me through life easier: I recognize people's actions and thoughts and they don't scare me anymore. on the contrary, I'm excited to learn how they act, what are their reasons to act that way, what kind of background do they come from that makes them be the way they are. It is, seriously, a lot of fun!
Who could have ever imagine me, a shy lonely girl, getting into the grand adventure of coming to the United States, living by herself, with no family close to her, just adapting everyday to a different way of life...the american life.
Sounds like a great plan. Keep it up and you will see how life's twists and turns before your eyes.
ReplyDeleteWow, what an adventure you are on. I'm looking forward to reading more of your blog.
ReplyDeleteDamn, this is intense. Think about this for a second though> Are you doing all of this with a certain goal in mind? This "lonely dependent girl" that is drifting away seems to be holding you back from the inexplicable feelings you seem to be experiencing. I'd say; "Let Go of her and be FREE."
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